Fitri's Back!
31 July 2010
I'm stress over my school life. Modules are very hard. Well I'm glad that when I retook my tests I passed it much better although it was capped at only 50%. Nevertheless I try to succeed in every module I'm taking right now although I hated it and didn't understand at all. For e.g Electrical Technology. Too many formulas and steps. When I think over it, this is just the beginning of my life. To accept hard challenges. Nothing is easy in this world. I posted the picture because I myself couldn't believe that I can actually spilt despite my body size. When my friends saw it, they couln't believe. Yes some left their jaws opened for a few seconds! So isn't it similar by not giving up in everything you do? My thighs are big. I often go to gym and I'm grateful I could still be flexible. So I managed to spilt because I persevered. I really wanna do that for my studies. I love studying. Although they are hard and lots of distraction, when I'm free I'll spare some of my time to read my books and revise the assignments given. Being one of the slowest or stupid-est guy in the class never make me down. I know my friends are clever and they are from good schools. I'll try my very best to show myself that I can do it. I don't give a damn whether you're from a high school or what. You're still breathing on this earth and we are all the same - human. I graduated from Engineering Mathematics, Engineering Mechanics & Computer Programming last week. Thank God I have the fundementals of these modules, at least.
Having a Maths lecturer who is one-of-the-kind sometimes made the class more happening. Mr Poh C.L, the one who'll always remind us to respect. Respecting the culture, table, projector, heart, socket, laptop, worksheet etc. Respect our parents and ourselves. Its true. In life, we didn't realise that we took things for granted, never appreciate what we were given and always disrespect ourself. We didn't realise that until someone approach us.
On a lighter note, I have 2 great friends from my class who'll always make my day blissed. Almost everyday, we'll be together. Studying, playing, jamming, eating, relaxing etc. Their nonsensical-ness always tickled me. One day without laughing? Neh. Fun and happening. Thanks guys. Though our character differs alot, we could still manage it and change for the best to keep in line with one another. Thank you.
Ramadhan is a week away and I couln't wait for it. I miss fasting, praying jemaah, beramal. Every good deeds, I felt sinned. I have put my important tasks aside and go for the temporary ones. I felt so guilty. Astarghfirullahal'azim. I can feel every single thing bout me especially the good character is going further and further. I can't let this happen to me. I must make a move and fight for it. I can't lose to him. He's evil. He's the one who'll pull me to hell. No. I'm not following you! Ya Allah, tabahkanlah hatiku. Lapangkanlah jiwaku. Amin.
I wanna stop doing these things. Please dear, forgive me. I have to do something more important in my life. I have wasted a couple of years. One more thing in my mind, my family is much more important than anyone else. Anything happened to them and i know it's your fault, you better pack your bags and run before I tear your face. :)
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